Just saying...

Is it me or do one gets increasingly sensitive as one grows older?
I rmb having a heart of stone when i was younger..
nth seemed to move me...
then as i got older, i started to cry more.. and feel more..
there were lotsa stuff that i could keep within me and suppress it..
i was kinda proud of that...
but now it seems kinda hard for me..
is my willpower failing me? i dunno...
i feel so ironic..
i know i can't have it but i can't stop thinking abt it...
i know i wanna be strong and steady but the truth is, i'm in fact more emotional and sensitive than i think i am..
more than what ppl think..
i have this default 'fierce' aura but i'm actually not that hard to talk to..
i may seem ok with alot of things abt myself but in fact i have alot of insecurities...
scared..alot of times..

i wanna stay true to myself and true and sincere towards everyone...
yet there are things that i dun wanna let out and there's always this wall around me, acting as my shield..

why think and feel so much when there are alr so many things to do right?
the problem with me is, i can't do things 100%  right if i'm emotionally disabled..
and it sucks. 

Just a short one

UK trip was awesome..
learnt a lot really.. and met some awesome ppl as well..
i'm really glad that our fellow classmates are now closer and more bonded
and meeting ppl frm other classes was really cool too:)

now i have to study for mid-years.. dun have much time left but i'll have to try..
feeling kinda tired though..

Irony..

I know I can't have it...but sth in me craves for it

for what reason I dunno...

I just can't seem to stop thinking abt it...