frustration....

well, sch dismissed early 2day... which is of course a rilly gd thing...

and there was choir prac... everything went pretty ok...

until i got kinda frustrated wiz myself during sectionals 2day...

cuz i jus can't sing... somehow...

tian jiao and sherrie repeated de line 4 at least 20 times be4 i cld get it....

it was crazy....

i dunno wats wrong wiz me... i felt lyk i can't sing my best 2day....

and tat irritates me Alot... seriously.. i jus felt so frustrated...

haiz... but i finally got de line in de end... so... yep.


btw, i jus received a schedule for de mooncake festival rehearsal...

and guess wat? it clashes wiz choir.... and choir is having an outing on tat day..

and i'm so NOT going 2 sacrifice choir 4 tat rehearsal....

i mean lyk... c'mon.. its CHOIR... not tuition...

why wld i wanna go 4 rehearsal instead of choir??... lol



ok... gtgn... Yeahman!!

Choir....

ok... quite a few things happening today...
dis morning was chinese oral exam... and guess wat?
i screwed it up...
it was crazy... i knew how to read de passage...
but when i sat in front of de teacher, i practically stuttered my wat through....
haiz... but i'm not gonna think abt it.. since its over...lol..

yep.. and there was choir prac... as usual...
we practised our carols... but we SUCK...
big time....
some esplanade person came by 2day to hear us..
to see if we can perform for some "limelight" stuff....
but i guess de deals off... since we suck so horribly....
even mr tan said he had never heard us sound worst...
our standard is going down... and i dunno why...
i rilly hope we can keep up to de reputation our seniors have built 4 us....
haiz... but choir will improve...somehow.. i jus noe we will....
becuz of our passion....

oh yes... 2morow is mr toh's concert....
some of us will be there to show our support....
though de venue is very very far...
i mean.. its lyk.. in CLEMENTI....
and i tink i'll reach home perhaps close to midnite....
but it doesn't matter... lol...

btw, i was randomly walking into a cd shop 2day...
and guess wat??
sth caught my eye....
i saw.....
JONAS BROTHERS NEW ALBUM!!!!!!!!!!!!
i couldn't believe it.... i was PSYCHIC!!!!
OMG.... i was jus talking abt it on my previous post... lol...
and obviously... i bought it....
haha... i'm so happy....
YAY!!!!!!!!!

my studies are gonecase...

hey...so... todays been pretty dull...

mostly becuz of my chinese results... i'm not sure why..

but my chinese results have been going downwards....

i jus got back my chinese common test and some compo back today....

and i was so disgusted with myself... they are few of my lowest marks i've ever gotten...

ppl arnd me are improving a lot.... and as 4 me, not only am i not maintaining...

but my results are also going downhill....

i never told dis to anyone becuz nobody can understand....



4 some ppl, they think tat i'm jus some psycho freak.....

cuz to them, the results i get are pretty much fine.....

but those marks jus don'twork 4 me...

i noe i gotta do better and somehow i noe i can... cuz i've done it be4....

i dunno... but i jus needa do better somehow... no matter how much i suck at de subject....

i'll be a study freak if i rilly need to.... (though i hope i dun have to)...

haiz... dis thing is rilly pulling my spirits down...



well, on a lighter note... i bought the CAMP ROCK soundtrack....

i'm rilly looking forward to de show when it premieres dis sept...

though i've already seen some clips frm you-tube....

well, de most exciting part is of course JONAS BROTHERS is starring in the movie...

lyk duh...

so i'm all out to support de show...yay!!

and JONAS BROTHERS new album,A LITTLE BIT LONGER, is already out overseas...
but not yet in s'pore... i wonder how long it'll take 4 s'pore to actually release it....
so i'll probably order it online....
tat is if i can persuade my parents....lol..
alright... so... always hoping 4 a better 2morow...
KEEP ROCKIN'!! yeahman.....

meaningful experience....

so.. its been quite a while since i even visited my own blog...
been pretty busy dis few days... homework, homework and more homework....
and plus de extra torture of tests..... its actually very tough... and not to mention tiring....

and yep, i jus visited an old folk's home (Lions Home) today....
we performed and sang a couple of songs, and of course chat and interact wiz them....
i must admit tat i was kinda afraid at first cuz i dunno how to go abt doing things....
but after a while, i kinda got into de thing and was rilly "high"... i was even dancing...
but de most touching part was when we started interacting....
i tried to avoid personal qns and ask things like:" are you happy today" & "how are you"
but some of them jus started talking abt their medical conditions....
i cld see tears rolling down as they were sharing....
i suddenly felt so sad for them...
i remembered dis old man saying( in chinese):"how can i be happy when i'm here?... but there is no choice.."
and a lady said sth lyk" u are still young, u can do wateva u lyk.... but i'm old already, wiz illnesses... i've become useless... it doesn't matter if i die..."
i jus felt so sad and sorry for them... i was controlling my tears throughout de interaction time....
and be4 we left, we sang one last song....
as we were singing, i scanned the place... looking at de old folks...
then tears jus started rolling down my cheeks.... i jus couldn't help it...
it was a meaningful experience.... i didn't believe it at first when shijia told me her class cried...
i mean.. i was thinking... why wld u cry?... i didn't understand... but now i do...
our last message 4 them was to stay happy and be positive... and i hope they will....
( btw, 2morow is 2.4km run... and i'm pretty sure i'm gonna fail... since i haven't recover from flu and block nose... so i'm not rilly in de best of mood now....)